|Late Night Ponderings
||[Jul. 17th, 2004|02:48 am]
It's 2AM. I should be asleep by now. I have to get up at 6:15 AM. It's too warm to sleep. I hate warmth. It makes it impossible to sleep. My body has now set itself into summer zombie mode. I hate summers. Always have. I'm a winter kind of guy. You can have your sun. You can have your wild summer nights. And you can definitely have your daytime back. Give me grey skies. Give me the biting northern winds. Give me my long nights of ice and desolation. There's something almost comforting about the dead of winter. It's cold. And offers no respite for the weak; of body or mind. If you can't handle it, you can always stay inside, and bundle up. Not so with the heat of summer. Unless, you like curling up inside the freezer. So ends my rant on weather.|
I thought about how I have problems connecting with people face to face. It's wierd. Online, I tend to reveal my more locquacious side. In person, it's like pulling teeth to get me to open up...at first. After I grow comfortable with you, I can talk like crazy, in seclusion. And, it's this very "seclusion" that we are afforded online. Sure, anyone with the means to do so can peek in, but it's not like they'd make their presence known. So, for the most part, online, we have a nice little hidey hole to shield ourselves from unseen prying eyes. Anonymity...it allows us to be so much more than we normally are. If only I could bring forth this verbose side in person; without freaking out all those around me. I guess I'd probably shock many of the people that know me with the wisdom that I do have...even if it is but a shard of a pebble from the mountain of all knowing wisdom. But, I have found that it is best to allow others to be. Not who they would like to be; who they think they are; nor who they are; rather, just to be. And, that is all any of can do. Just be. With that, I take my leave.